The one factor in widespread between now and 2023, is that the publication of a derogatory hate web site exposing my bare physique with out permission, images made in compliance with request and in response to guarantees to not make a Fb web page and exploit my story, has turned out to be one other failed negotiation, in the course of the time a change in care was occurring and secondary opinion. Consequently I can affirm that precisely previous a college capturing in 2023, and 2024 a hate web site was revealed of me, taken down earlier than mass shootings occurring in 2023, and continues to be revealed and added to (whereas this particular person has been blocked not more than 2 weeks now) previous to 2024 most up-to-date college capturing, and continues to be revealed after a college capturing has taken place. Which leads me to imagine that this truth or timing or incidence has became some recognized unspoken timeline, to not accuse me of hiding or working by way of particulars in non-public by way of e-mail, abuse at anyones discretion my privateness my communications or my weblog.
I believe whats of subject is assist, how I’m supported and enhancing in non-public, and the way these adjustments or that assist is perceived by others, to accommodate what’s considered me, or what the “the folks” consider me, involved about making me look good or unhealthy, and the way that impacts how different folks really feel, whether or not it makes a distinction for me to lose assist, or achieve assist, and the way that assist is lose privately, and in addition publicly although the publication of a hate web site. Moreover punishment is rendered primarily based on the sorts of individuals making an attempt to have intercourse with me, and thus affecting the standard of my life and my discussions on-line. One thing tells me that all the things is about folks feeling or considering issues in widespread, and a typical option to name me one thing or watch some anticipated dysfunction or issue or self hurt or suicide, is a consequence of being examined as a human being, what kills me, and what’s essential for me to remain alive, and whats an enormous deal. Whats an enormous deal is making me fats and uncomfortable sedentary off meds, wrongfully accuse me of habit or alcoholism or punishment for disclosing voices or self hurt and consequently Im, being handled like Im mentally ailing and accused of being offensive or inappropriate, and to me that’s letting that particular person win, and making everybody else assume like them, then accuse me of being scary or inappropriate or bizarre, making adjustments to my life and the way issues look, I don’t victimize folks, I deserve care, Im a affected person one that works arduous and I don’t want folks to make me look good or communicate for me, I don’t assume its applicable to show and trigger the subject material to be my physique components whereas Im overweight and accused of psychological sickness, nobody needs to see, I don’t care if nobody loves me for the remainder of my life, I can give up primarily based on how I’m being handled now refuse love care friendship assist, or sexuality on all bases for the remainder of my life, with out my age a topic or my weight. Ultimately its not my focus that’s flawed or my weblog that’s rubbish or unintelligent, I can get a paid job in legislation and that’s the actual fact, not about what number of occasions Im informed I’m sick and taking my job away, its by how many individuals are sickened by my talents or being a standard functioning human being, and as an alternative of connecting to me controlling me and accusing me of not being human or too tough to attach with and be cared for, why not comprehend why its not okay to threaten me or my household and scare my Mother and fear all of my medical care, and accuse me of main a foul life, or being sick on goal, cease accusing me, don’t carry up the lawsuit, I’ll by no means discuss to anybody for the remainder of my life. That is severe that is about race, I simply rejected medical care and undesirable suggestion and intervention by a head of psychiatry at UCLA, and refuse to be punishes to be judged, to count on me to develop into this system or what varieties of folks you count on me to develop into, evaluating generations and folks of various ages, and anticipating a sure look or eyes, or weight or widespread courtesy of feeling or confidence an individual of promise, who isn’t mendacity to anybody, who retains no secrets and techniques, who’s sincere, who emails Brady, who isn’t harming anybody nor my self. Who calls for to be given treatment with out grievance, and with out being handled like Im mentally ailing or cant deal with life, what I cant deal with is being despatched to Cedars at a clinic that treats sufferers with ketamine, however wont prescribe me adderrall and that being in widespread to Matthew Perry’s loss of life, I additionally can not deal with in widespread being informed to not do issues and being informed to do issues I cant do, and have the treatment Im taking be the problem why Im caught in mattress all day. Clearly no ones cares about withdrawal, nobody cares if I cant textual content, not one respects my peace, nobody respects my restoration, as a result of in the long run its not about me, its about everybody else and their timing, and never trusting me, the issue is treating me as a sick and treating me as consumer or affected person, when Im a paralegal and went to legislation college, the issue is looking me issues I’m not, and the issue with hurting me and inflicting suicide once more, is as a result of I described the 4 yr ordeal of being punished for images requested of me and the destructive judgment that adopted, and now whats in widespread is hurting me or inflicting loss of life to folks I do know and making an attempt guilty me or use a court docket case involving Todd Spitzer to talk for the deceased and accuse me of being somebody who loses assist or nobody being on my crew, or be offended then situate John Cockrell (whereas his privateness is protected by exploitation) proceed to threaten me over images and weblog posts and Texas Legislation, what I don’t have the time for is talking and all the things Im saying made a joke out of the place I find yourself or make enjoyable of what’s occurring to me, I don’t give a fuck should you assume Im fucking disgusting and Jewish and Filipino I don’t give a fuck should you name me mentally ailing or assume I carry illness, and I don’t give a fuck what your opinion is on my case, dwelling, dying, psychological well being, my losses, or treatment.
Downside: Uncomfortable in widespread, and hurting me then watching the American folks for a change and making an attempt to kill me like an individual is healthier off if Im useless, punish me.
Replace: Sorry wasn’t feeling nicely yesterday.
