08-31-24
If there’s one factor that I’ve discovered after being damage is that, at no cut-off date sooner or later, in restoration, enchancment sensible, happiness sensible, medicine sensible is anybody glad with forgiveness. What I’ve discovered about being damage in life is that everybody will get away with hurting you and there appears to be no repercussions for somebody having harmed you, and there actually is not any excuse, utilizing my life the least bit doesn’t qualify anybody to be the knowledgeable on me or my story or my psychological well being. What Ive discovered about voices and tech is that voices is a joke, and what I’ve discovered about life, is regardless of who hurts you and regardless of how you might be punished or undergo, to not have an effect on anybody, and nobody is chargeable for hurting you in life. I’ve discovered the laborious method to not discuss to anybody, and the lesson is discovered is all the things in life is a script, dislike is a continued system of inflicting hurt to somebody and never liking something they are saying, and phrases develop into a system of not forgiving me and letting all the things else go, together with my psychological well being, I hereby refuse to take any meds, and keen to stab myself within the chest if that is what life means to simply let everybody win on the premise of nobody respecting my psychological well being or line or work. What’s too late are all of the lies and all of the methods I’m harmed and the way life and my life particularly is being watched and scripted to attempt to damage me and use me by ruining my life then accuse my life as affecting anybody else’s life. You realize what destructive judgment means it means to by no means exit for the remainder of my life keep house, by no means contact anybody for the remainder of my life and cease logging my progress in my telephone. What I’ve discovered about having an iphone is that it simply turns into an area that will get invaded and textual content messages learn and other people pretending to be you and other people out of your life and damage you and take no duty for the interior repercussions of wounding an individual in personal or hurting an individual in public. Its not my coronary heart that’s small or my life that’s unforgiveable or my psychological well being that’s not monitored handled or improved, its what folks assume can’t be modified and clearly no amount of cash privilege or race associated points or coloration of your pores and skin is sufficient to be supported in life to not justify a use of power upon me decide my face or my individual or my life mistake me for somebody you accuse of being a menace. What I’ve discovered about life, is to by no means belief anybody, by no means discuss to anybody, to surrender in life, you possibly can determine conflict and politics with out me, to surrender running a blog by no means photograph once more, and quit on being well-known and to discontinue messaging anybody, since all the things is about what I sound like or evaluate me, discriminate me, accuse me of blocking, or accuse me of needing assist or rejecting assist in life I don’t want, what’s clear is nobody respects enchancment.
09/06/24 replace ….
I swallowed a bottle of fat burners and known as 911 they usually made me throw up and stored calling me to verify I used to be okay.
As a result of one other hate web site was made after blocking somebody who claims to like me.
Right this moment I simply left my Therapist and my Psychiatrist and looking for new care to get studying incapacity medicine.
I simply paid for CA State Bar or Bar Prep basically programs and I’m enrolled.
I’m within the means of filling out an software to take the CA State Bar and want to talk with them first to clarify I didn’t end my JD is why I didn’t sit for the Bar Examination circa (2013-2014) after I ought to’ve graduated.
I used to be taken off adderrall with out my consent everybody spoke to my Mother and decided regarding my meds with out me because of taking me off adderrall it has brought on me extreme weight acquire and weight problems I can run on a regular basis I refuse to be placed on meds rybellus ozempic or we govy (is a joke!) mistreat me as diabetic I’m not diabetic I don’t eat that a lot meals. I would like my meds. I’m drained out being insulted I’m not mentally ailing I’m not schizophrenic I refuse to like or date or have intercourse for the remainder of my life and won’t textual content name or trouble anybody for the remainder of my life you’ve got my phrase. #stopsuicide